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Time DestroysTime Destroys.
I miss you. It's that simple - I don't know if it's right, but I do and I'll admit it now;
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.
I miss the way you made the most simple of acts seem so amazing; a hug, a kiss, a smile, a laugh... you made it all beautiful, you made it feel like everything.
I miss the butterflies that would fill my stomach at a single thought, the unstoppable smiles and the heart flutter at the mention of a name. I miss it, I do.
I miss the wanting. Wanting everything, wanting nothing - being so filled up by you that I wanted to find the highest rooftop and just scream you to the stars. I wish I did while I had the chance, I know I never will...
I miss the need - needing to be so much closer, but closer never being enough... It was everything, but never, ever enough.
I miss your distraction, the way you would shine so bright that you'd blind me from the shadows - I'd know the darkness was there, but your light would shield me from it...
Letter 1Hey Stranger,
I just got the urge to write you to. It was the weirdest thing, I was just looking at the sky and really seeing it, you know? And I just wanted to tell you about it, to talk to you.
Truth is, I haven't thought about you in well, I can't even remember how long.
You mattered to me. I don't know if you knew that and I doubt I ever told you, but you did and you're not a part of my life anymore - but you mattered and because of that, you still matter to me in this weird nostalgic way.
And so I was looking at the sky, looking and really seeing and I wished you were there beside me, watching it with me and I would ask you if you were really seeing too.
The sky is always there, all we have to do is look up. Well, I read this book a while ago -- I wish I could tell you to read it too, I think you'd like it a lot -- and there was this part in it that said, "the sky is everywhere, it begins at your feet." and it's true if you think about it, it is all around us I'
Far AwayFar Away.
You speak in riddles sweetheart.
"I want to make a beautiful mess of art and words and moments."
Even when you're here I can tell you're not always with me, your eyes and words are far away, meant for someone elses ears to hear and your glazed gaze looks right through me.
"I want to be remembered, I want to be forgotten."
You're such a contradiction darling, I nod and smile like I understand you but I don't - in truth I'm just content to hear you speak, to have you with me even if its just a physical presence while your mind is somewhere else.
"I want to burn bright, live my life in fiery moments and blaze out with a bang"
Sometimes I think I get it. I give you replies you don't even hear as you're deafened by whatever wall is between me and your thoughts but I can't shake that feeling that you're saying goodbye, that you've been saying it all along.
"Don't you ever just want to scream or run or self destruct?" You say.
I blink, automatic answ
Just A Thought - GoodbyeI hate the word goodbye.
Really, I think it's one of the worst words; hate, anger, jealousy, rage... all of those negative emotions? Sure they're strong and intense, but they blaze through you and usually burn out as fast as they were ignited. But goodbye? Nothing lingers like the ache of saying goodbye to someone you care about.
That feeling of seeing someone walk away or disappear from your life--whether it's permanent or temporary--while you're just left behind with the void of their absence for company, feeling lonely whether you're actually alone or not that feeling is so awful.
I hate the word goodbye, I wish it didn't exist.
I wish we never had to say goodbye... I wish we never had to feel it.
I hate goodbye.
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